The gap between my expectation of life and the reality

There was a time when life felt simple. I had a family and career, an “established” life as it were… and then my Dad died. It felt like after that everything changed, but also nothing changed.

My Grief happened

My Life happened

My Relationships happened

I felt like I had no control over anything, but everyone expected me to carry on as I had done previously. Everything around me happened but not how it did before.

I tried to keep things the same and I tried to carry on as I had done previously, but I struggled. I wasn’t the same person, and those around me weren’t the same either. Something needed to happen, but I didn’t know what.

After much trial and error, failings and tears, I learnt that I needed to work out how to take control of the new situation, but in my own way. Not to fit in with what everyone else wanted me to do. My what had happened, and I needed to find a way of how to happen with it.